Sigh

So much to do and I can never seem to find the motivation to do it. But as of now I am trying to get a summer research position at UMCP and NIST so that will be interesting. I am happy to be celebrating Mr. Zhang's birthday (for the third time) tonight and then cramming my butt off for finals.
Oh yea, work. Work consisted of a five minute lecture on how to put theatre lights on the rails that fly up above the stage (called electrics) and how to put them away. Then I proceeded to occupy 3 hours of my time with these two tasks. I wasn't too bad, despite being stabbed by wires, being cautioned about having to buy my manager beer, and trying not to break anything, it was rather amusing to just do something and chat with my co-workers. Overall, I'm looking forward to learning more about the whole system and how things work.

Funsies

So. I start my new job at CSPAC tomorrow and I have absolutely no idea what to expect. So probably lots to say tomorrow

wow

Time flies.
Honestly, it felt like just a week ago I was entering college for my first semester and now here I am ending it. I really am just feeling a blur of emotions about this. First would be disappointment in that I am not as far along as my friends are and thus I feel much less knowledgeable. Also disappointment in myself for not working as hard as I should have. I do feel excited for taking classes this summer and catching up to my fellow students and just being able to plan out and see where all my education is leading is very satisfying. Stressed due to upcoming exams and project due dates. Lastly, I feel accomplished because I feel that since coming to campus I have matured a great deal.

lies

When I was little, my mom would always tell me that I could lie to other people but I could never lie to myself. I always took that to be a lecture about facing my conscience. However what I did not realize that it is possible to lie to yourself. Well, incompletely that is.

There was just this one thing i was involved in, and every time it occurred i would have this terribly dissatisfying feeling afterwards. It puzzled me to no limits, I could not understand why I was feeling the way I felt. Then I realized that I felt one way and told myself to feel differently. So far I have no solution to this problem and have concluded that I just have to endure for now.

On a lighter note, I've noticed that I only use my left thumb to press the space button and my right thumb kinda gets annoyed.

Hrmm

Well here I am with a brand spanking new blog and I am left with the simple question of what to write about. So the time being I'm just going to spew out some of the random things that happen to pop into my head.

Have you ever noticed that your eyes are not capable of smooth motion? They cannot pan left or right as a video camera can. They jump from one point of focus to another. I noticed this one day walking from classes could not get rid of the terribly bothersome feeling behind my eyeballs for the longest time.

Well... this is new

Hello there.
I decided to start this blog on a whim. I have no idea where this will end up so enjoy!